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The world is a scary place

so we decided to have a family holiday this year and go somewhere a bit different, we normally go to Spain! So I got on google and had a look around and a place called Oludeniz came up in Turkey, looked beautiful, bright green sea and white beaches sold it for us! The week after we booked we were at racing when someone asked if we had seen the paper as there was an article about Turkey being on high alert from a terrorist attack and British tourists were at high risk! So typical, we book a nice holiday then get scared into going! I decided not to let it worry me and then a week later the Tunisia terror attack happened……

It’s a bit of a wake up call when terrorist attacks happen and especially ones that involve British people. It’s a horrible reminder of the evil in the world and that nobody knows what’s round the corner. I live in a very small town with very little crime and not a lot going on and to see British people like me getting shot on the beach on holiday is so scary. I can’t even find the words to describe it. It’s devastating and heartbreaking to think that those people were relaxing and enjoying the sunshine not knowing what’s around the corner. It must have been so scary being in that situation, in fact I can’t even begin to imagine it. So that’s Tunisia tourism ruined for a long time. And the cause of it…. Pure evil, people that have possibly been brainwashed or people that just genuinely believe they have a good reason to kill innocent people, it may be religion, beliefs, revenge for something, politics, war, or other reasons that we may never know. One thing I know is that I will never understand it and never come to terms with how someone can just end an innocent persons life. 

The reality is though that this is the real world and this is what happens and worse. This is the world we are bringing out Children up in and the world our grandchildren, great grandchildren and future generations are living in. As long as we live in our little town out the way we feel a sense of safety as if we are out the way of it all and unlikely to experience the terror going on in the world. 

So everyone is saying they wouldn’t go to Turkey and wouldn’t book a holiday in a Muslim country because of the extremists. I don’t think you can blame Muslims, yes religion plays a part in this but there’s good and bad people everywhere and I don’t want to hide away. In Tunisis the hotel staff that were Muslims tried to stop the gunman and risked their lives doing it which just shows that there’s as many good people as there are bad and you can’t judge everyone basedon obe persons evil actions. 

Oludinez looks beautiful and a fantastic part of the world to visit. Turkey is on a high alert but then so is France, Spain and England. Is anywhere safe? Probably not, if these extremists are going to attack us then it could be anywhere and could happen anywhere. If we stop visiting these countries then they have won. There are good and bad people everywhere and attacks can happen anywhere in the world. Obviously it’s going to be in our minds when we are abroad but we just need to go and have a great holiday and not let them win by scaring us out the area. 

I just think it’s such a shame that this is now the world we live in and it’s not just a small group of people but a billion dollar army of nutcase extremists that are willing to die for what they are doing and what they believe in. The scary thing is that when they die they want to take as many innocent people with them and there doesn’t week to be a lot going on to stop them! Although what is going on in the government and military is way above my intelligence level! 

So a week from now we will be in Oludinez wondering what all the fuss was about and having a fantastic holiday! Or at least that’s the plan! 

The little reminders!

So after the whole Cancer episode I thought I would just forget about it and move on, I was back at work after a few weeks and didn’t have to have chemo so in my mind once I had got the operations out the way everything would go back to normal! Turns out that’s not the case!!
It is a bit strange because at the time I was having all the tests, surgery etc I didn’t once freak out or get upset. Yet over a year later I find myself getting stressed and upset for stupid reasons! The first thing is the paranoia, I get the slightest headache and I think it’s a brain tumour, I have a tiny new mole at the moment that I’m convincing myself is cancer! It’s not a healthy way to live but after the shock that I had breast cancer I now start looking for something wrong with me and am constantly paranoid! 

The next thing is my back, when I had my surgery they removed the muscle from my back to do a breast reconstruction. This must have caused some nerve damage that the surgeons say could be permanent. If anyone hugs me or taps my back I get shooting pains resembling electric shocks! I never say anything when this happens as I don’t like to make a fuss but it’s really painful! I was on the treadmill the other day and only walking at a slow pace and my back felt so strange, it like tightened up and was really painful! I am hoping this will go over time but it’s been over a year and it hasn’t! 

I have booked us a holiday to Oludeniz in Turkey for July. I am so excited! It’s our first holiday abroad since my operation and will be my first time wearing swimwear! This has turned out to be another massive drama, it must sound like I’m being a proper moaning Minnie but all these little trivial things never used to be an issue but suddenly are! So far unless I wear a wetsuit I can’t find one bikini that flatters my over inflated wonky boobs! My husband keeps saying there will be way worse looking people on holiday so stop stressing but every girl wants to look good in a bikini and for me it’s not actually happening at the moment!  Either way it will be a fantastic family holiday wonky boobs or not! The hotel looks great and the sea is bright blue and really clear. It’s really exciting! 

Anyway enough winging from me, I always tell myself there are far more people out there worse off than me so smile and get on with it as it always could be worse! 

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